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[ Thursday the 25th, 05.32PM] |
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UPDATING THIS CAUSE I DONT WANT IT TO ERASE
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[ Friday the 15th, 06.18PM] |
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Okay. So i was thinking. sourblood is such a stupid name. Sooooo! I got a new name.
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RIGHT THERE!
*waves goodbye to sourblood_x*
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[ Wednesday the 13th, 09.19PM] |
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Its a long story but, me and tom are going out again :)
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[ Tuesday the 12th, 09.23PM] |
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Heres some pictures from the weekend. :D So much fun...! Yay! Commenttt please.
( Picturess )
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[ Monday the 11th, 03.00PM] |
The Dresden dolls concert was effin' awsome. The hotel was great. Spending time with Heatha and Shelby was fantastic.
All in all it was a good weekend. :)
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[ Saturday the 9th, 05.39PM] |
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Credit to 3am__lust for my layout.
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[ Thursday the 7th, 12.25PM] |
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Idk, i've been really 'blahish' lately. Feeling jealousy,lonliness,rejection,sorrow,hate..everything. Life really sucks, and too many things are going on right now i just can't keep up with all these emotions.
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[ Wednesday the 6th, 10.33PM] |
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Whatever..go away.
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[ Tuesday the 5th, 12.24PM] |
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5 MORE DAYS!
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[ Monday the 4th, 12.45PM] |
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Rejected once again. I don't know why i get my hopes up. Stupid love shit. Thats all it is. Screw him, i dont need him...or do i?
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[ Sunday the 3rd, 08.14PM] |
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1.Write about people on your buddylist.
2.Write anything, good or bad, but never say their name.
( Click )
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[ Sunday the 3rd, 02.17PM] |
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[ Sunday the 3rd, 01.12PM] |
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My mom read my diary. The fucking end.
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[ Tuesday the 29th, 09.15PM] |
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*sigh* Yeup...went to see my grandpa today..how depressing. I compared him now to 3 months ago..hes not the same person. Hes just so miserable. I wish my mom would just say "take him home" and at least let him die at home, where hes supposed to be. Not in a nursing home...and a hospital.
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[ Monday the 28th, 03.46PM] |
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...heres a lesson...If you DONT like the person then DONT pretend you do and lead them on. Im sick of guys treating me like a toy. They only like me when they are 'caught up in the moment' Thats complete shit. Thank you for making me feel like the shittiest person ever, and hate myself. You did it to me. You are guilty. Its amazing how some people dont THINK before they do.
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[ Monday the 28th, 11.25AM] |
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:(
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[ Saturday the 26th, 03.03PM] |
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Went to jeremy's yesterday. Hung out with Tom, Jeremy, Alex, and Angela. <3 We played truth or dare. Guess what that led too? :D
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[ Thursday the 24th, 05.01PM] |
After school me n Heatha went to taco bell. We got to school, cause i had to go to drama. Then heatha watched me. Called me on my cell phone while i was practicing lol. Im so happy right now. <33 My crush asked me to the movies. :) :) It was great..Tom fell off the stage..his head hit the floor and everything :( I thought he was going to DIE, then i landed smack on my knee and i had to pop it back in place..
Geeess...drama kills.
Later
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[ Wednesday the 23rd, 01.12PM] |
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I got a flower from someone :) *happy sigh* On a sadder note, my grandpa is like...dying... :(
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[ Tuesday the 22nd, 12.29PM] |
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight
You're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I would understand
Well he's on the table and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they're doing here
And your friends have left you
You've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You could put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again I would understand
I'm starting to fall in love with Third eye Blind again...
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[ Monday the 21st, 01.00PM] |
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what the hell...gah...
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[ Sunday the 20th, 06.38PM] |
I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore,
Before you take a swing, I wonder what are we fighting for,
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this, I wonder,
Is there anything I'm going to miss, I wonder
How's it going to be, When you don't know me,
How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there,
How's it going to be, When there is no one there to talk to,
Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be,
How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh, There's a shouting match,
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch,
A silence I can't ignore,
Like . . The hammock by the doorway we spent time in,
Swings empty,
don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me,
I wonder
How's it going to be, When it goes down,
How's it going to be, When you're not around,
How's it going to be, When you find out there was nothing,
Between you and me, 'Cause I don't care,
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
When you don't know me, any more
And How's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again,
The soft dive of oblivion.
Want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion
How's it going to be, When you don't know me, anymore,
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[ Saturday the 19th, 08.23PM] |
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Thats for ALL the comments people..appreciate it. This weekend couldn't have gotten any worse. The effin judges give me excellent scores, then all three of them mark off 3 points on each of their papers because my song was 15 seconds over the time limit. WHICH NO ONE KNEW THERE WAS! So i didn't get to go. I dont want to talk about it. bye
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[ Thursday the 17th, 12.27PM] |
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This is my last entry till like saturday or sunday..Im going to Brightmoor for the Fine Arts competition..(im singing) So yeah..Leave messages...or dont. Whatever.
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[ Wednesday the 16th, 09.46PM] |
Shoutout to my friends who hugged me, helped me, told me they loved me, and gave me hugs this morning...Even after the morning. If it wasn't for all of you i don't know what i would of done today. I love you all.
I <3love<3 all my friends :)
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[ Tuesday the 15th, 09.00PM] |
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R.I.P
Grandpa Stucki
August 9th, 2004
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[ Tuesday the 15th, 12.54PM] |
Today is the day i find out if i made the talent show. I really don't think i did. I did really bad. Oh well...we'll see. Anyway...i got three crushes today, one from alex, one from heatha, and one from jeremy. I really like him alot..but i guess he doesn't feel the same. I don't know whats going on. He sent me a red one, he said that means "i wanna f*** your brains out" well...lol...him and tom said that, but it supposed to mean i like you..so does he? I dont know! gRRRrrrRRR Im in computer class right now. Im so bored. I HATE excel. Im not going to do this assignment, so there.
Bye.
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[ Monday the 14th, 05.40PM] |
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again
I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know
When the bell rings I just don't want to go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big (so big)
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
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[ Monday the 14th, 02.46PM] |
i dont want the world to see me
cause i dont think that they'd understand
when everythings made to be broken, i just
want you to know who iam.
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[ Saturday the 12th, 04.15PM] |
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I stayed at heathas last night <3 YAY! It was fun. When shelby and i got there we went to the video store and got Ed Gein, that serial killer, the dentist, and slice..i think thats it. Its about a killer clown. So yeah we went to CVS for pop then we got taco bell <3<3<3 then we got back, and we ate, took pictures, then watched Ed Gein. It wasn't scary it was just really interesting. Then we went to bed. Well kinda. Elise was blasting her music. So we talked for an hour. So yeah we finally went to sleep. I kept waking up every 2 hours. Lol. So we wake up. Then like we take pictures, then watch the dentist. HOLY SHIT CRACKERS THAT IS THE MOST EFFED UP MOVIE! It was scarry!! Okay, heres pictures. :)
http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=6873768&uid=3350798
i dont know how to get the LJ cut to go to the website anymore, so copy and paste that link. :D thanks
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[ Friday the 11th, 03.07PM] |
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Going over to heatha's tonight. Should be fun. :D
I really like someone. :-/
So yeah..i know what my 16th present is. Its a digital camara. So when i get it i'm going to make a website just for my photography. Can't wait. I love to take pictures. <3
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[ Tuesday the 8th, 12.29PM] |
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As of right now, i wish i wasn't here.
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[ Saturday the 5th, 09.09PM] |
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I miss my childhood. I hate getting older. I miss my imagination, my barbie dolls, how i used to think that my beanie babies were real. How i would never care what i wore or how i looked. I miss my grandpa. I miss everything I NEVER used to care about ANYTHING except for my parents and brothers. I always prayed everynight saying "God, thank you for my life, thank you for my house, my dog my family.." Well you know what? I don't do that anymore. Because either i forget or i just dont. I used to be such a little christian girl..And people at school think im christian now? You haven't seen christian till you knew me when i was 10. I loved Jesus so much. And i still do. But i just can't seem to thank him for as much as i should.When i used to get sick, my mom would cater to my every need...now its "Take care of yourselve" ......but i don't WANT TOO. I miss getting babysat...now im the one who babysitts... :( I MISS MY TEDDY BEARS AND MY BARBIE DOLLS!! I miss thinking that Barney was my hero. *sigh* And i also miss being afraid to go down the hallways at night, and practically run into my room, now if someone tried to get me i'd prolly scare them.I can't even listen to music anymore when i fall asleep. Wow...do you remember the bands you listened to when you were young? If so comment and tell me Nsync, backsreet boys, Bewitched, Vitamin C...Aaron Carter!...come on. You listen to those now and think "What was i thinking" But really...try and listen to those CD's now. It brings you back..
R.I.P
..Grandpa..
*Someones watching over me*
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[ Friday the 4th, 07.59PM] |
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I just watched 'Raise your voice' What a great movie..i cried and cried. I recommend it..Idk if i spelled that right. Anywho im not going to do the 100 facts about me thing cause i'll end up forgetting to do it sooner or later.
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[ Thursday the 3rd, 03.45PM] |
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 lmao :) Great job heather. <3 you.
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[ Wednesday the 2nd, 07.09AM] |
I've decided to copy Rachel, and list 100 random facts about me in each entry :)
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[ Monday the 28th, 01.13PM] |
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Today was good. After school i got on the bus. I got off at the last stop so i could go to Alex's house so we could practice our dance. I get there we sit on the computer forever..then we go to his ortho appointment. That was so totally RAD! They have videogames there <3<3 Pacman<3<3 Then his parents are like "Lets go to De Lucas" So we did. That was good. Some old lady was staring at me, and winking...AHHH! Me n Alex laughed so hard and loud everyone was staring at that point. Soooooooo then we get to Alex's then go to Youth Group...I wont talk about it..but just to let ya'll know.. IM NOT APART OF IT!! IM JUST THE MEDIATOR! lol..drama everywhere i tell you. Well the drama got rachel to want to leave and so did Alex so since i was with Alex i left with them Rachel ended up going back to Alex's so we hung out there. We ended up taking pictures and talking to whole time <3<3 talking is funnnnnn :):):) And we took alot of pics..then josh took us home *me n rachel* and that was that. It was funner than is sounds. The funny thing is, i went to alex's house to practice our dance, and we only practiced once. and that was to show rachel..lol :D yayyy
( Pictures, dawg )
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[ Friday the 25th, 01.19PM] |
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Im taking quotes from lyrics. Enjoy. :)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay
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I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreamin' bout you
Honestly, tell me that it's over
Cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
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Oops...bell is about to ring. I'll add more later. Goodbye.
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[ Thursday the 24th, 12.30PM] |
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R.I.P
Blink 182
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[ Wednesday the 23rd, 12.53PM] |
Im in computer class...boring...i really have nothing to write..
Drama is today, can't wait. We are practicing swing dancing. Its fun. I think cheese wants to be paired with Sara, so i might just pair up with Alex. That would be awsome. I like would squish cheese. :( Whatever. I'm gonna go. I'm real bored. I'll update with something interesting later.
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[ Saturday the 19th, 01.33PM] |
So yesterday, my aunt calls me around 12. She picks me up around 1:30. We go to see 'Hide and Seek' Good movie. :) Then we went to taco bell :D OH YEAH! DID I MENTION THAT I DROVE THE WHOLE TIME?? Well now i did. So yeah then i came home around 6, Heatha and Shelby came over and we ate pizza and tried to watch the grudge.
Heatha: Hey..did you know that this is the first time i've seen this movie?
eRin: *shuts mouth*
lol that didn't last long though. I couldn't help but laugh at the grudge. Its not scary anymore. So yeah then we played a little UNO. :D and yeah. Then heatha got the idea to play the drinking game. Where you say something that you have or have not done and you drink if you've done it, you don't drink if you haven't. So yeah they were teaming up on me. So i got them back with "I dont have my industrial pierced" :D:D:D:D:D:D:D HAHHHAHAHH im sooooo good. Did i mention what the drink had in it? Well, orange juice, pepsi, and milk. Its grosser than it sounds. Shelby threw up, and heatha gagged alot ;) Sexy, i know. Shelby blames me for making her throw up, WHATEVA!
Then we watched Saw. Dude..GREAT MOVIE. Go rent it. Scared the be-jesus out of me. Made me cry. :)
Last night= awsome night :):):)
Whos house is next weekends?
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[ Thursday the 17th, 06.03PM] |
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I've become attached to this song. What? Its a good song.
I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build em up again
So heres your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts 'cause it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I'm dreamin' bout you honestly
Tell me that its over
As if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know
I wont be the one to chase you
But at the same time your the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
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[ Wednesday the 16th, 02.52PM] |
So woke up, went to an orthodontist meeting. Then went out to breakfast with my mom. Went to the Secretary of state and got my official permit. Then went to see my grandpa. :( Hes so helpless. He barely remembers me..he most likely will never teach again, and its so depressing. Hes not the same old grandpa anymore. :( I dont even want to talk about it.
Later
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